Last night went well again and the day has passed without too much drama. Funnily enough this time around I don’t feel too sick and have managed to get more sleep.
The only real excitement for the day was changing the dressing on the Hickman line, which I have compiled as a photo essay below (warning – only for the brave hearted). This happens once or twice a week subject to how it stands up to showering and general ‘wear and tear’.
The game of choice this afternoon in the Ward 7B Game Session was Celebrity Heads and the patients and staff seemed to get into it quite well. My nominated person was Marilyn Munroe which I managed to nail after 6 or 7 rounds. It was quite fun for an hour or so and a great relief from the routine of the Ward.
At today’s session I sat next to an older bloke, Rob Marshall who was in caring for his wife who is having a long battle with Cancer. As it turned out he is a farmer and near neighbour to us in Tassie. Such a small world really – who would have thought. We had a great chat about the farms in the Fingal valley and farming in general.
I also managed 4 sessions on the gym equipment with my sister helping out on the odd occasion.
I managed to watch the Wallabies overcome the All Blacks last night and it made me think a little bit about determination. The team certainly showed lots of determination in that game and it was so good to watch and not feel at any stage like they were going to give up.
Which brings me to my situation:
Determination is a big part of my journey. Determination is defined as “Firmness of purpose -succeeding because of sheer grit and determination” and also very interestingly “the process of establishing something exactly by calculation or research” – very apt for the scientific approach my team have with my health.
There are times on this journey that you could easily say it is all too hard and look at the alternative of not participating.
However for me this is a foreign concept – I guess I am a fairly determined person. Some might say this is one of my stronger traits.
I am determined to follow through on all the treatment. I certainly do not feel sorry for myself or blame anyone for my condition. It is what it is and it took me only a matter of minutes to accept this when diagnosed back in August. For me it is all about the way forward.
I am determined to keep pushing through each day – no matter how slow it appears to be going. I have found many ways to keep myself occupied. Some have asked how many movies I have watched. The answer is none, as with reading, listening to radio, exercise and knitting I haven’t found (or made) time for movies. It must be a low priority for me!
I am determined to keep in touch with family and friends and keep them informed of my progress – no matter how slow it is going. Hence this blog.
I am determined to walk out of this hospital with the prognosis of a great outcome – no matter what that takes.
So like resilience and persistence, determination is a trait that in times like this comes into its own and helps with the recovery process.